[ She has to pause a moment, trying to keep the words that are about to come out from being too harsh, but her smile vanishes. ]

... No. I'm not saying it's wrong to want things to be that way, but--that's just not how I can look at it. If any of them were here, I probably--no, definitely, I'd feel even worse about it. Relying on them for that kind of thing would be....

[ There's another pause, and she lets out a small breath. ]

Well, but I don't have your particular problem.