[He was just starting to adjust to the feeling of Teo leaning against him when he draws away, and combined with what he says it leaves him feeling unbalanced. But...]
...It's not that I hate it. That place... the state I was in when I hid there... it was what I needed...
[But he doesn't deny the rest. He healed as much as was possible on his own, and then he simply continued to exist in that peace and quiet... as much a sanctuary as it was a place to preserve and wallow in the pains that would never be healed.]
...I had the chance to change the world. But in the end, I only made it easier for the humans to cast us out. If I hadn't failed back then, maybe the kids of today wouldn't have suffered as much as they have for being wizards... even now, I've acquired more failures. At least when I was alone, I didn't have to worry about new regrets... who's to say I won't fail everyone again?
The life I want? I don't care about that... I just want them to be safe and happy...
[Heathcliff, Shino, Nero... the rest of the children, Lennox, the Sage... maybe even Figaro...]
no subject
...It's not that I hate it. That place... the state I was in when I hid there... it was what I needed...
[But he doesn't deny the rest. He healed as much as was possible on his own, and then he simply continued to exist in that peace and quiet... as much a sanctuary as it was a place to preserve and wallow in the pains that would never be healed.]
...I had the chance to change the world. But in the end, I only made it easier for the humans to cast us out. If I hadn't failed back then, maybe the kids of today wouldn't have suffered as much as they have for being wizards... even now, I've acquired more failures. At least when I was alone, I didn't have to worry about new regrets... who's to say I won't fail everyone again?
The life I want? I don't care about that... I just want them to be safe and happy...
[Heathcliff, Shino, Nero... the rest of the children, Lennox, the Sage... maybe even Figaro...]
...You as well.