01. Primus | Video

[5thchild]

[Kaworu comes to the screen with a kind and gentle smile. There is no reason for video, but he likes to look at people ]

Hello. I understand that people can not choose to return to their original worlds on their own, so I'm assuming I will be here for a while. Therefor I'm looking for a piano or a violin. I'm not sure where I can find one; not to buy - I simply wish to play.

[and now that is out of the way, what truly matters is:]

I have a question, for those who wish to answer it. Are you happy?

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[5thchild]

I have little experience when it comes to interacting with others, but I did not see the need to mention I'm not human. [ but well, humans prefer to interact with what they know, that much is true ]

I will remember to do so next time.

[daikonrose]

[ What an exhausting person to talk to. Kyoko huffs, and decides to move on. ]

... In any case, there are other non-humans here, and they're definitely part of society. Not being human doesn't mean you're exempt, and it's not something you get to decide on your own either. So, don't think you can just duck out.

[5thchild]

To simply put: my kind does not form societies. Therefor such concept is inconsequential for me.

[daikonrose]

[ There's a little pause, with some heavy squinting. ]

So, basically... you go out of your way to poke at people in a society that you don't want to consider the rules of, because you're above it all. Am I getting that right?

[5thchild]

My understanding of humanity is limited, but always expanding which is why I ask these questions. But you take offense to them. I am meant to follow rules your human society imposes, but not ask questions.

It's a very limiting existence.

[daikonrose]

Sorry humans are so limited.

[5thchild]

It's not something to apologize for, all lilin are so. But even with limits, you can still go further.

Life is what you decide you want it to be. It's your mind that conceives those rules you mention as your truth, but it's only formed by a narrowed view of the world. After all, one measures things only by one's own small measures. These are the limits you unconsciously set for yourself.

But if your view and position change, the things inside the mind will change too. Your truth can be changed simply by the way you accept it. Therefor, perhaps your rules are not as dogmas as you insist them to be.

[daikonrose]

[ wow wow WOW ]

... You know, for someone who says he has limited knowledge, you sure don't mind giving a dissertation on the subject. It's kind of amazing....

[5thchild]

I have little knowledge on human society. [ not humans themselves, not exactly ]

[daikonrose]

No, I think I got that much.

In any case, I never said you can't ask questions at all, did I? But suddenly jumping to assumptions like "you believe you can happiness without others" is a little too much.

[5thchild]

It was a question, not an assumption.

[daikonrose]

The effect is the same.

[5thchild]

If that's what you believe, then it is.

[daikonrose]

I'm saying it's more complicated than that! Whether I can have happiness without others or not isn't important.

[5thchild]

Why not?

[daikonrose]

Because it's about whether I should let other people be the source of all my happiness. That's a different matter, you know!

[5thchild]

I do not. [ he doesn't know, that's why he is asking ]

Should you - or shouldn't you? What makes you decide?

[daikonrose]

You--[ This is so exhausting. ]--when I say 'you know,' you don't have to take it literally all the time. It's a turn of phrase. An interjection.

And the answer is "I shouldn't." I decided that on my own, because I already tried the other way.

[5thchild]

[ it's not just that. It's because she did get mad at him for not understanding his questions and for him not understanding her answers. Therefor, it's just easier to take things literal at this point. ]

So if others should not be the source of your happiness, then what is the source of it?

[daikonrose]

[ If only Kyoko knew she, herself, was being difficult.... ]

It's something I have to create on my own, one way or another.

[5thchild]

And yet you said you are not happy. How come?

[daikonrose]

I don't want happiness in a place like this. [ There's a beat, and she almost doesn't say any more. ] ... And even if I did, I don't know how to create it here.

[5thchild]

Do you know how to create it in your world?

[daikonrose]

... Mm. I was working hard at it.

[5thchild]

I see. Being pulled from there, do you believe your efforts were interrupted?

What's so different here that makes it difficult to achieve it?