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[5thchild]

Hello. [ have a SMILE :) There is no reason for this to be video other than Kaworu not really bothering to change the settings on his communicator ] I am pleased to see that the city is different since my last visit. You are truly amazing, proving that you can heal even when all seems dire. Congratulations. [ kanworu's smile grows bigger ]

My presence here and existence in this world is still quite irrelevant. But because healing this world might be the only way to be returned to my universe, I will help. Positive contact, right? [ kaworu absolutely does not mind it at all. Regardless, that is the perfect way to ask his next question ]

Is contact with others something you are comfortable with? The touch of another person, is it something you seek?

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[5thchild]

Are you afraid they will leave if they do know?

[wakemelater]

[Okay, ouch.

He hedges.]

Possibly. But that's what people do.

[5thchild]

Do they? Have they done so before?

[wakemelater]

I wouldn't have said so if they hadn't.

[5thchild]

Because you have been hurt and because the heart is easy to wound, you close it off, hoping you won't feel that pain again.

Isn't it lonely, however?

[wakemelater]

[How about...we just not go there.]

Do you want to be a therapist or something when you grow up?

[5thchild]

Not at all. My existence has no future.

[wakemelater]

Did you die?

[5thchild]

Yes, I did. [ and he is pretty okay with that ]

[wakemelater]

[Not all deaths are unwelcome. Some are necessary.]

So they've interrupted your afterlife twice now? ...Or do you have an afterlife?

[5thchild]

There is no afterlife. I have simply faded away.

[wakemelater]

That...sounds peaceful.

[5thchild]

It's the ultimate freedom.

[wakemelater]

Hm. [Non-existence does sound kind of nice, though hard to grasp, considering what he knows of his own world's afterlife.]

Are you okay with being alive now?

[5thchild]

[ UH. That is a question he wasn't really asked before ]

It's not important. To live or to die, it doesn't matter to me. [ he didn't really answer the question, but Kaworu isn't actually sure how to answer it ]

[wakemelater]

...

[Oh. Uuum.

Like...Okay. He's definitely felt that way before, and sometimes cycles back to feeling that way. But he has no idea how to approach this. Maybe:]

Why doesn't it matter?

[5thchild]

I'm unimportant. My role has been fulfilled, and the only thing I desired has come true.

There is nothing more to my existence.

[wakemelater]

You could find something else to give you purpose.

[5thchild]

Do you have a purpose?

[wakemelater]

Sometimes. It depends on what's going on. Right now, my purpose is to help this world. Maybe then, I can go home.

[5thchild]

And if that purpose is fulfilled, then what? Will you simply find a new purpose?

[wakemelater]

I have one waiting for me back home. I believe a friend of mine is trapped somewhere. I'm going to find them.

[5thchild]

Then, your purpose is ultimately to protect your friend. [ to fix this world, so he can go back, so he can save his friend ]

[wakemelater]

For now. Once I find him, I'm sure something else will come along. [There's always something else - another battle, another prophecy...]

[5thchild]

is it something you are looking forward to? To find out your purposes as you go?