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[5thchild]

What do you live for?

[ it's a very simple question. But Kaworu has been asking himself that ever since he was brought back to this world. His own role has been fulfilled and the thing he wanted to happen did, therefor... there is nothing else to him.

And yet he is still here. To live or to die doesn't matter to him, but he has a reason for the later, not for the first. So kaworu does what he does best: he asks other people.

It's also because he is endlessly curious about everyone.



But also! ]

Where may I find a piano?

Comments

[awooligan]

I haven't given you any answers that mattered
but you've got people being honest with you and shit
you're not even TALKING to them

[5thchild]

Conversations can be had through text as well. [ but. well, it is true, ti's not really talking ] Should I turn the video option?

[awooligan]

holy fucking shit
NO
what I mean is that what you said just there is like the closest to sounding like a person having a conversation with someone that I've seen from you

quit only asking questions like we're fucking lab rats
conversations are give and take, but all you're doing is the take part
that's not learning, that's observing and testing and it's fucking creepy

[5thchild]

Anyone is welcome to ask any questions they'd like.

I am also not testing anything nor I see you Lilin as experiments. I am observing, however, in order to learn more about you.

[awooligan]

it doesn't fucking feel like that, don't you understand that?
I get it, you're not human, you don't know how to act
but how the fuck do you communicate with other whatevers, huh?
are you all brick walls like this or did we just get lucky?

[5thchild]

Angels, that's what Lilin call my kind.

And we feel each other. We have no boundaries and we are as one. Without the barrier of individuallity, we feel and know each other's hearts.

[awooligan]

okay well great newsflash you're a fucking individual now and not some creepy biblical soup
or you wouldn't care about pianos I guess

anyway humans aren't soul soup so no matter how much or what you ask you aren't ever going to understand
we don't even understand each other
asking shit this way isn't going to get you a lot of friends, it's just weird
try thinking about how to answer instead of rolling into the next question this isn't an interrogation christ

[5thchild]

I am not. [ biblical, or an individual]

And I do not mind if I don't have friends.

I have understood much by asking. But it is your choice if you answer or not. If you believe it is an interrogation, if questions upset you, and if you believe it is weird, you do not have to answer any of them.

[awooligan]

you fucker WHY ARE YOU ASKING ABOUT WHERE TO GET A PIANO THEN
are you even listening???

[5thchild]

Because music is one of Lilin's greatest creations.

[awooligan]

JUST SAY YOU ENJOY MUSIC YOU ASS

[5thchild]

[ are you alright? ]

I enjoy music.

[awooligan]

YOU ENJOY MUSIC
you know, the way an individual does

[5thchild]

[ no.]

It's a pleasant feeling. Pleasant feelings are not inherently individual.

Just like pain is not. In fact, we all share it, the feeling of pain.

[awooligan]

yeah but some people like Taylor Swift, and you probably don't have a headache from trying to make you understand normal things, so we're not sharing everything are we?

[5thchild]

You and I are not the same.

If speaking to me upsets you, you do not have to do so. You have the choice not to.

[awooligan]

I'm just making sure my point gets made
see, you said we aren't the same
so you're admitting that you and I, we're individuals
so I win
;)

[5thchild]

[ yeah, kaworu is just going to let him believe whatever he wants. he has explained he is not the same as humans and he is not an individual; if this person wishes to insist on it, so be it. He is already used to having people insisting on what he is, what he isn't, what he is meant to be or not. ]

Lilin believe what they wish to believe limited by their own vision and understanding of the world. It's difficult to overcome those boundaries.
You will always win, if that is what you want.

[awooligan]

sounds like someone's mad about being proven he's an individual with individual angry feelings and bad taste in music

anyway stop saying lilin it's weird

[5thchild]

Humans, then. [ he can win that too, if it upsets him ]

[awooligan]

great

but me specifically, I'm Cliff so if you're going to be insulting my "limited understanding" then just get to the point
it will actually make you sound LESS like an asshole believe it or not

[5thchild]

What you perceive as reality is always filtered through you. That is your world, your truth. Naturally, different people will have a different truth, thus there are as many truths as people, each formed by revised information to protect yourself.

To you, I'm an asshole. To others I'm the enemy of mankind. To some I am "Kaworu Nagisa". To some I'm the Mother. And I may even be an individual if others insist. There is no right or wrong - so the way you see me, it's the true me according to the way you filter it. But that information will always be limited unless you are me.

[awooligan]

[this isn't the point at all, but]

I thought you were a guy

[5thchild]

This body is male, yes.

[awooligan]

oh my god I wasn't asking about your dick I just don't want to go on misgendering you if you're not a dude
sounds like you don't super care though? you identify as spoonful of soul soup