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Hello,

I have a question I am hoping someone might be able to answer.

You know a person who makes you feel safe, comfortable, and relaxed. Whose presence makes you feel warm and content. A person you wish to see smile, and whenever they do it makes you so very happy. Who you are always excited to see and spend time with.

This person who also makes your insides flutter uncomfortably, like the feeling you have when you wish to punch someone in the face very badly, though you have no actual desire to punch them at that particular moment. Who can aggravate you like no other in the span of a single breath, yet also calm your fury just as effortlessly. A person you cannot fathom being absent from your life.

What would you call that kind of person?

My thanks for any insight you can offer.

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As I said, I'm not going to speak on his cruelty when I know naught of it firsthand.

But when one has been hurt so deeply--say, as with the incident you describe with the summoning of Hydaelyn--it is to say the least difficult to trust again. Isolation is easier. Acting as though nothing matters and keeping others at distance ensures you can't so easily be hurt again.

I will not say I think him right, or claim to take one side over the other. These matters are complicated ones, that's all.

Thank you for indulging me. I appreciate your input a great deal.

I'm sorry there's little I can do to help. The two of you and your world are all perhaps beyond my understanding, even with so many similarities.

Love beyond family or friendship is something far beyond my limited scope of knowledge. You've helped a great deal, little shadow. More than I could have hoped.

A problem - that's what I'd call that person.

They are many problems, not just one. This just happens to be one I cannot seem to put a name to.

I guess you could name them a Problem with a capital P then.

Either you hate 'em or you love 'em, but either way, they're a Problem.

I do not hate them, but I cannot love them.

Soooo why not try to kill them? If you feel bad after, then you know you actually liked them. If you don't? Well, problem solved.

Unlike some, I dislike killing others even when it is necessary.

[ besides, she kind of already killed him anyway...... ]

It's okay, we all have some shortcomings, yeah?

But if you can't kill them, just avoid them. Same diff. Take them out of your life and see what happens.

I do not see valuing life as a shortcoming.

Didn't say you had to follow through on it, just try to kill them. You'll know when you're in the middle of it whether you actually want them gone or not.

And if you're sooooo opposed to killing, like I said - just cut them out of your life. Either you'll miss their bullshit or you won't.

I have already killed them, and found no joy in it.

Yeah it's unfortunate when they don't stay dead. Unless, of course, you didn't want them dead in the first place, then it's kind of like a freebie.

So? Did you miss them once they were dead?

I did not want them dead, but they left me with no other choice.

I felt relief and regret in equal measure. I cannot say I knew them well enough to miss them at that time.

But now? Seems like you've gotten to know them better and you think there might be more regret than relief, huh?

I do not regret what I have done. I regret that it was necessary, but that is nothing new.

So, sounds like whatever they did to warrant you yeeting them off this mortal coil, they deserved it. Makes for a complicated relationship, huh?

Can't say I haven't had my fair share of shitty boyfriends in the past. Just 'cause you like someone doesn't meant they're a good person or that they're good for you. Might be better to just ignore them, regardless of how much you might wanna be near 'em. It might cause you more grief than it's worth.

Even disregarding what they did, it would still be infuriatingly complicated.

I would ask that you not compare them to your shitty boyfriends. Despite being somewhat of an asshole they are a good person, simply forced to do horrible things to survive. From what I understand of the concept they would likely be quite a good boyfriend for most anyone else.

Just because I like being near them, but that does not mean I want to be near them.

Well you got your answer then either way, huh?

If he's not good for you, so leave him in the dust, homie. You gotta practice some self-love in this situation and get the hell outta dodge.

In a sense, I suppose.

What is self-love?

Do share the answer when you find a satisfactory one. I'm sure you're not the only one wondering.

[NOT THAT HE'S ONE. OF COURSE.]

And if there is an unsatisfactory one?

It's still an answer and one they won't have to ask in turn.

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