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[astralera]

Hello,

I have a question I am hoping someone might be able to answer.

You know a person who makes you feel safe, comfortable, and relaxed. Whose presence makes you feel warm and content. A person you wish to see smile, and whenever they do it makes you so very happy. Who you are always excited to see and spend time with.

This person who also makes your insides flutter uncomfortably, like the feeling you have when you wish to punch someone in the face very badly, though you have no actual desire to punch them at that particular moment. Who can aggravate you like no other in the span of a single breath, yet also calm your fury just as effortlessly. A person you cannot fathom being absent from your life.

What would you call that kind of person?


My thanks for any insight you can offer.

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[astralera]

You would not resent her for it?

[scourgingstars]

What would she have done worth resentment? What would she have done at all past have been born in another's shadow?

It would hurt me to know her, surely. But it would be cruel to hold it against her.

[astralera]

Then you are far less cruel a man than he is, Ardyn.

[scourgingstars]

As I said, I'm not going to speak on his cruelty when I know naught of it firsthand.

But when one has been hurt so deeply--say, as with the incident you describe with the summoning of Hydaelyn--it is to say the least difficult to trust again. Isolation is easier. Acting as though nothing matters and keeping others at distance ensures you can't so easily be hurt again.

I will not say I think him right, or claim to take one side over the other. These matters are complicated ones, that's all.

[astralera]

Thank you for indulging me. I appreciate your input a great deal.

[scourgingstars]

I'm sorry there's little I can do to help. The two of you and your world are all perhaps beyond my understanding, even with so many similarities.

[astralera]

Love beyond family or friendship is something far beyond my limited scope of knowledge. You've helped a great deal, little shadow. More than I could have hoped.