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[astralera]

Hello,

I have a question I am hoping someone might be able to answer.

You know a person who makes you feel safe, comfortable, and relaxed. Whose presence makes you feel warm and content. A person you wish to see smile, and whenever they do it makes you so very happy. Who you are always excited to see and spend time with.

This person who also makes your insides flutter uncomfortably, like the feeling you have when you wish to punch someone in the face very badly, though you have no actual desire to punch them at that particular moment. Who can aggravate you like no other in the span of a single breath, yet also calm your fury just as effortlessly. A person you cannot fathom being absent from your life.

What would you call that kind of person?


My thanks for any insight you can offer.

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[scourgingstars]

It's not the sort of thing that adheres to strict guidelines, no.

You can ask. I can not promise an answer.

[astralera]

If you were to encounter her now, reincarnated millennia later, and found her to be lesser in spirit — not as bright or vibrant as she ones was — what would you think of her?

Assume you could not merely avoid her, and that your fates are inexplicably bound together. You are forced to ally with a woman who is her, but not. What would you feel toward her?

[scourgingstars]

I fear any answer I could give would be of little help to you. While she would not be the same, so too am I a shadow of what I once was. And even I have barely a fraction of the years Emet-Selch does, so anything I say would surely not reflect in the same manner.

But even considering that--were I to meet such a woman, it would certainly ache somewhat. But I would

I would wish to know her better, if it were me.

[astralera]

Even knowing she would never be more than a whispered echo of what she once was? To forever be a disappointment when compared to the memory of who she was?

[scourgingstars]

She wouldn't be Aera.

Is that in itself some manner of crime? Merely existing in a way she never asked to, unaware of anyone she once was? Nonsense. Her life would still be of value as its own unique existence.

[astralera]

You would not resent her for it?

[scourgingstars]

What would she have done worth resentment? What would she have done at all past have been born in another's shadow?

It would hurt me to know her, surely. But it would be cruel to hold it against her.

[astralera]

Then you are far less cruel a man than he is, Ardyn.

[scourgingstars]

As I said, I'm not going to speak on his cruelty when I know naught of it firsthand.

But when one has been hurt so deeply--say, as with the incident you describe with the summoning of Hydaelyn--it is to say the least difficult to trust again. Isolation is easier. Acting as though nothing matters and keeping others at distance ensures you can't so easily be hurt again.

I will not say I think him right, or claim to take one side over the other. These matters are complicated ones, that's all.

[astralera]

Thank you for indulging me. I appreciate your input a great deal.

[scourgingstars]

I'm sorry there's little I can do to help. The two of you and your world are all perhaps beyond my understanding, even with so many similarities.

[astralera]

Love beyond family or friendship is something far beyond my limited scope of knowledge. You've helped a great deal, little shadow. More than I could have hoped.